Happy and Prosperous Chinese New Year everyone!

You know, one of the things i love being in a multiracial country is that theres so many reasons to celebrate. We, have all kinds of celebrations and its great, its awesome when you think about it. The vibe is there, the happiness and love is in the air and smilling faces everywhere. Aint that just awesome? I love seeing people happy and i love being happy. Plus more public holidays for the kids and working people. Theres just one lil problem right now. I feel the urge to celebrate, to get out there and have fun with people and of course to get ang pau but im stuck here, at home. I dont know what to do or where to go. My chinese friend is only doing an open house in a weeks time. I feel like shopping. alone. But im here in Kajang and its too far or rather i feel too far to go to Kl. Normally from Setiawangsa, my apartment, its only like 5 minutes taking the lrt. I could go there back and forth anytime. OK, I know, I've complained too much.

Anyways, my life's at its peak rigt now. If I were to rate my life i'd give 9 out of ten. Thats how great my life is right now. Why not 10? Money. Money is a big problem. I am always broke that it scares the shit out of me. I'm sometimes depressed because of this. Whoever says money can't buy happiness, screw you. Money can freaking buy happiness. There should be no debate about this. I want money . I know, i know you people are screaming 'get ur ass to work!', or the less rude people would say,'kau keje ar dowh 'or the nicer ones would say, 'u should get a job,u know '.Thank you people but I am working,ok? I have a job. I make ts and paintings and other creative stuff. Its just that these things need a lot of investment. And Ive just invest a whole lot of money. To get that money back takes a lot of time. I mean A lot. I'll try not to think about it. But no one is stopping me from going shopping once i get the money. Delay all the outings! I need to shop! Sorry friends who were kind to ask me out for a drink, i seriously have no money and although actually i do have some, they're just not meant to be spent.
The 9 out of 10 includes happy being 18, done with highschool, an awesome relationship with the family,boyfriend and friends, more days to do whatever i want ,growing and inviting business and yeah,everything just seems great. Now this is the reason for my gained pounds.I binge like nobody's business these days and ive definitely grew fatter. This is what happens when ur life rate is 9/10.I need to sweat. I seriously need to s w e a t. GIG! I need to go to a gig. I gotta tell ya thats the best workout ever! Here's one im looking forward to:

HARMACY and MUCK are playing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They play good shows im not kidding.But,15 bucks.dayemmm.now its 50-50. Do you see what I mean? Happiness is taken away just like that because of 'kecek elek' (no cash).

Happy cny again!

im proud of myself; p

Heres a customer of mine who made me proud. Thanks Lini, for the support. I appreciate it so much! I'll call u up if i need a model. muahs!;D

Special day over. Many Thanks:

Thank you everyone for wishing me for my birthday.You people are the sweetest ever!It was a great 18th birtday i have to say.Felt awesome.Thanx mama n papa for bringing the big family together at cozy house at Great Eastern Mall, Ampang.Also for the delicious chocolate cake.Thanx Fairuz,my brother who wished me the first and at midnight sharp.Not only that, u even gave me two lovely picture frames.I love it. Abg Hafiz, though you couldn't get me the body shop lotion i wanted, u still gave me fifty bucks which was damn awesome of you.hehe. Aunty Yah, for the jean-type bag which i plan to use it for class.My other aunts and cousins who added to that fifty bucks, thank you also. To kak emi and abang Nizar, you guys have bought a present that i love so much. A photo album full of cats; p. You know how much I love cats but i cant help it that Im still a lil sad about the tragic and traumatizin death of my cat remang who was not only a cat but was actually my soulmate. Anyways, i don't plan to blog about her. Its too sad. Nufail,my 'twin' , thank you for the t shirt. Syg kamu. Iqin, fairuz's girlfriend who was very kind to give me a cheerful coloured card which made me all excited just by looking at it,thank you; D. It was a simple yet great birthday.

Whats more exciting is abg Nizar and Kak emi ordered two paintings sizes of an A3. Type of painting like i wanted selling at annexe. And Jim Flora's (an artist) style. Ive never done this type of painting but i did not say no.I will not say no. I will never say no. So, yes I am going to do it. No matter what. A cousin of mine also ordered a tshirt from me which is great. Adam, a friend i knew from myspace also ordered a shirt which i have to design for him. So hey, Im still in business ;D Then few hours ago I spent quite long being on the net just to find people who are doing art works or organizing events. I really need to broaden my 'horizon'. I need to spread my art. I really need to improve. So, i added a few just now and i found a new organizing team,bebas who was actually introduced by nufail. They're like rantai (another organizing team) but is newer and much more easier to approach compared to rantai who doesnt really reply my inquiries or wtv. So, thats alright and thankfully i found bebas. The better news is that they're still looking for a photographer to be in their team. So, without hesitant i offered myself. Showed them my work and they will consider it. They'll inform me if im in or not, soon.This is bebas:


check them out at www.myspace.com/bebasmusical

Back to last friday,I went to my apartment in ampang which is a concrete jungle which i dont really like staying in because im a nature freak. So, a home surrounded by buildings really gives me a headache. Everytime i go there i'll be homesick. I'll miss my whole-life-home here in Kajang where i have trees all around and a garden like a golfcourse with full of much fresher air. Anyways i went there in the morning and sat for 15 minutes,read the newspaper (yes,i read the newspaper;p) and was bored shitless later. So I went out to klcc on my own by the lrt which the station is only across the road from the apartment. Didnt feel like walking alone at klcc, unless i had the cash i wont mind shopping. alone . Since my pocket was empty, I textd shahrin (my boyfriend) to come hang out. Thankfully, he was free and came few minutes later. Well, Wangsa Maju isnt that far, so yeah. We walked around klcc up and down, round and round till we decided we could not do that anymore. So Shahrin had a great idea.We went in the Petronas Gallery to see some art.He finally knows what type of person I am; ). The amazing thing about this gallery is, it's free. F R E E. and i just got to know that! nampak sgt org tak appreciate art. And although its free, you dont see people in there! Anyways,i enjoyed it so much.

Thats it folks.goodnite.

The power of armpits

Armpits are parts of our body that well,we are not fond of. So far I have not met anyone that loves their armpits more than they love their other parts of their body. But do you think armpits can be something that attracts the opposite sex? I don't mean like a real turn on or anything haha but it could be something, you know, like people do check out your armpits to judge you at some point. For an example, guys don't want girls who don't shave their armpits, do they? and ladies well,hairy armpits for guys are fine i think. I mean I won't fine them odd. Anyway there is a guy who said this in his profile on the 'who id like to meet' section: girls with nice armpits. Hahah!rock on, dude! Well, i guess it IS something that guys do look at.And I gotta tell you, razor blades are no longer good enough for perfect armpits these days. Thats why, whoever the geniuses are, came up with all sorts of inventions to remove body hair. If im not mistaken the latest is by using laser, innit? For common people like me, who doesnt have the extra cash just for the removal of armpit hair, we stick to razor blades or twizers(ouch). Or,avoid wearing sleeveless and keeping armpits down all the time.

Speaking of keeping armpits down, you know, if we're sweating do make sure that they're down!Because if our armpits are sweaty, they get really dominant. They'll start producing milky sweat which stinks and could really suffocate another person. Now, the reason i say this is because i was stuck in a bad situation-in an commuter packed with sweaty people. Being short as I am, I had 3 pukey armpits of different people right at my freaking face-In front, left, and right. The worst thing is I couldnt move and my stop was not any sooner. I was gasping for air, I needed oxygen very very badly and im not exaggerating. It was awful. Im not sure if they've heard of deodorant.I am going with heels of 3" everytime i get into a public transport with people from now on. At least theres 'less polluted' air on top.hah.

cheers people.

growing passion

It is time that i stand my ground. I am going to say it loud and clear without a single doubt or fear (wow,it rymes,now where did that come from):

' I have passion in art and my passion lies deep within. I am not an artist by profession but i know there is an artist in me. People are always full of doubts and they are always (most of them) very negative on thoughts or ideas or some creation by other people. People tend to have this narrow minded thinking or mentality of bringing people down instead of being humble and helping people to the top. It saddens me, but that is how most people are. Thus, with myself experiencing and encountering a lot of these negativeness from people around me, bringing me down and making me to even have a thought of giving up, I would just like to now stand firm and say 'you failed'. You almost burry me under the ground but the sun has shone once again.ok,whatever that means. What im trying to say is, I'm not a chicken anymore nor am I a sheep. Im a lion that roars. I am no longer hesitant of showing my work to people and Im not scared of making mistakes anymore. I believe and Im sure everyone does, that art is very subjective. Everyone knows that art is subjective so why do they still critisize just to bring people down. Such an irony, I have to say. I will now accept all sorts of criticism from people with an open heart. Ill take whatever there is that I need to go on top, consider others twice and leave whats not necessary. Its no doubt that it is the one way to improve, innit?. Last but not least, I feel sorry for people who tried,try or are trying to bring me or other people down. I feel sorry that you can't actually do what we positive people are doing. And I feel sorry that you can't step out from your 'comfort zone'. Thank you. Rest assured '


Now,these are my latest,biggest and best work so far.stare at it as long as you can.you might get my message.



This piece is called ' faith muse and courage '. It represents what i have said ealier. But let me just explain in detail. I have painted this when i got the inspiration to change. So, this piece really means a lot to me basically because it is the first piece i've done that has a true meaning and represents me. The new me. When i was painting this I made a decision. I will not allow anyone to bring me down. Just like what i've said earlier. I now have faith,muse(inspiration) and courage. ' Faith ' is represented by the colour light blue. Its a soft colour which means it is firm and will always be there.Its okay if people don't have faith in us but it's important that we have faith in ourselves. For ' courage ', I used red to represent it as courage needs to be strong and on-going. Courage always comes with fear.Thus there is still 'fear' in this painting (represented by the black paint).This is because,there is still fear in me.But the fear will only be the shadows of the courage.Shadows.They follow but they dont lead.Courage leads. The rest of the colours in this painting represents muse or inspiration. There are many colours for it because muse is everywhere.Its scattered and of all sorts.Okay.tell me what you think;D



Now, this painting is for me being a loyal fan of Kurt don cobain for almost five years already. In this painting it shows my view on his life. It was full of depressing and unbearable moments, preassures from surrounding but yet, a true soul living in him.Cobain,his guitar,art and music are the things that actually made him happy, that made him HIM. He has his own beautiful world and he is a man full of originality.And i admire him for that.The painting shows towards the end of his life where i drew a gun and lots of red paint which symbolises blood spilling.It shows that he could not stand the media pressures anymore, at that time as well as being eaten up from the inside due to drug addiction.Its really sad but he will always be remembered.And i know this for sure.There.*wipes tears.


Okie dookie,you are free to judge now;D.

WISHLIST!

Well, well, my birthday is in two days time. Just wanna let the WHOLE WORLD knows that im turning 18 in 2 d a y s t i m e
!.sweet sweet 18.Oh,and you know what,i would REALLY appreciate it if you people would buy any OR all of these for my birthday:i know u nice people just cant wait to get me presents but heck, just dnt know what to get me rite? kick off the sighs,i made it easier by doing you this list.

1. It'll be very nice if you people would buy me A PAINTING from the first shop on the left as you enter annexe central market.

2. If thats gnna make a big whole in your wallet, as the canvas + the oil paint + the intelligent talent of the artist would sum up to big amount of cash, getting me ACRYLIC PAINTS are good enough.

3. Though if you really love me and dont mind spending,you can always get me a FILE for my portfolio which I saw at kinokuniya (at the stationary section, just walk straight to the back).It costs RM118.not too bad ey?

4. No worries if you dont love me THAT much (haha;p), buy me CANVAS.big or small doesnt matter. BIgger are always better. you know that rite? i know im right.

5. BRUSHEs or black FABRIC PENs will be f i n e..............

6. OH oh!how bout a new BLACK EYELINER.the one that doesnt smear easily.yg mahal tu.(hahahah;p).it'll be great for my sepet eyes. and i always get it tattooed so i promise you it wont be a waste. at all. at all.

7. If you like NOVELs,i like em too.but make sure its not the typical teen novel ok? coz im not one hahah.i mean the 'late teen' novels are fine. Adult fiction.you know what i mean.*gelak nakal (cheeky laugh).

8. You know what,i really r e a l l y need a new chair for my study section in my room. The MODERN STYLE STOOL which is best if the height can be adjusted. And and,i wud like bright colours for it. Green, red, or white. You know, the 'ikea' colours. oh ya,get it from ikea, hows that?

9. I would also really love to use some of BODYSHOP'S BODY LOTION.yea,i'd really love that.make sure its sweet smelling,not too mile not too strong. Find the smell that says, "im 18,im new,clean,legal and fresh.come to me,im here ooh baby ooh baby." haha. Thats too much. How bout just this, " im 18,im new,clean,legal and fresh" ok fullstop. Find me that.

10. last but not least...bring KURT COBAIN to life?i'd love a one night stand with him.

Okay,your pick guys. But i know you people are a bunch of cheapskates. And i know im not AT ALL mean. just throw me a pool party.haha kidding,just make sure you wish me ON my birthday.midnite will be best.;p take care 'kids'. wehehe

bla-de-bla

net not working.things are goin OK..
Though i really miss studying.haha.yeah.
cant wait to get into college or u and get bz.
plus i ran out of friends.yeah friends.ill tell you what people run out of.peop run out of cash or fuel.not friends.but me?my friends are mostly gone.dissapeared.poof!just like that.hanged with az last few days which was fun.been a while since we last hanged.thank you monkey for coming.Though he was late but i didnt really mind bacause i was hooked by this great book by geoffthompson at kinokuniya.'the art of thinking positive'.uhuh,the perfecto book for me.Ended up buying it.lol
aite,have to go.

new event!

hope sempat la buat my ts.3 days left.no sleep; /