sometimes...

sometimes.........

byk pikir
rasa still hard to get around with people
i feel stupid
rasa want to go bck to childhood days
rasa want to fast forward
rasa xnk duk msia wanna stay somewhere else
rasa want a newlife
missing the old times with my brothers and miss being the centre of attention
rasa everything i do or say aint right
rasa i dont deserve the good
rasa people take me for granted
i can be neurotic
i care too much what people think of me
i just don't bother
i feel like a coward
lifes just so sucky n cruel.
i feel defeated.
i need someone badly

insecurities.xhabes2 haunting me.im such a 'negative creep'

blade o blada= )

Whats been up besides my business?

Heres the cliche line.Lifes pretty much the same.Im 18 and Im like most other 18 year olds,who decided to wait for the results and not to go to college.I don't know if I have a solid reason to not go to college but I have again,like most 18 year olds,few selfish reasons to not go to college: I was afraid I won't get the time to 'enjoy' and do whatever I want if I were in college right after spm.Secondly,I am not ready to get my brains to work and to learn new serious subjects which also means i am too lazy and in need of a break from studying.Thirdly,well theres no third reason.I guess if I were already in college i won't get the chance to do alot of things:

I won't get the chance to develop my art and get myself involve in business.I do see this as a learning process actually.I think i've learn how to appreciate money more compared to before.Although i've always knew that to earn money is not easy,but it was just not more than knowing that fact.Now,i've actually experienced it myself,going through all the hard work trying to get a single penny of my own.It is not easy peasy but the satisfaction you'll get after is such a pleasure.I just can't imagine how my dad works.I mean I feel like my life is too comfortable,getting everything i want,I don't see a single problem.He gives me everything.I just feel guilty-for not getting good grades and using loads of his money.Well,results will be out this wednesday and I'm so afraid to disapoint my parents.But what's done is done,I'll do good next time I guess.No use crying over spilt milk right.

Moreover,if I were already in college,I'll probably won't get the chance to spent time as much as i've spent with my boyfriend and getting to know him more.I'll most probably forget about him and hook up with another guy from college or staying single and being flirty like I was after school ended.Well,you know,the 'girls just wanna have fun' thingy.I'll probably won't get the chance to even know what a great friend he is,won't get the chance to meet his lovely friends and lets just say,i don't think he'll even be in my life chapter.

Besides that,getting into college that early would make me miss loads of gigs.I do enjoy going to gigs,supporting local bands as well as meeting new people.My social life definitely has improved so much more by getting involved in these things.I mean,i now mix with people easily compared to before,I only hang with my close friends.I've also learned to be more friendly to people.hihi.Not to say that I was not friendly before but I just did not bother much of other people.;)

I might not also get the chance to have my vacation in Perth,Australia this may with my momma if I were in college.Yes,I'll miss teh chance to have fun during winter there!Plus this time around i'll only be going with mama alone,just the two of us,leaving the rest of the family behind.My dad was moody for a week or so when we decided to go there.He ended up buying himself a new car.Ah well,whatever makes you happy,papa=)Ill also miss the happy moments i spent with mama.Going for breakfast,lunch or just hanging out getting a drink and talking crap.Im not ready to leave her alone.Im too close to her.huhu yeah,anak mama.

Oh!college would also cost my dad alot.I mean,it didn't matter if I were as smart and as hard working as KOng Lee Lian or Kushin kaur or Shamine Sanusi-my babes=p.If I were them,I guess i won't be wasting my dad's money,it'll be worth it.So,yeah,few selfish reasons that i could think of for not going to college so soon.And i guess i've spent my break very well.I didn't waste my time and doing nothing.Though i must admit that going to British Council didn't really helped me much.I still have problem speaking,getting my words right and my writting didn't improve too.It helped me a little but you know,not much.Ill finish by end of march if I'm not mistaken.Can't wait though.lol.I don't really enjoy going there,for some reasons.

godddd,my heart just races everytime i think of the results this wednesday.I am going to faint.
wish me luck.Though,could i possibly get lucky still?miracle perhaps?That will so do!
cheers everyone= )

SOLD OUT!!!!

ALL S.K.I.P ART stuffs are sold out!
s.k.i.p art's first event at mcpa,9th march 08,managed to sell all of my stuff!thank you people!thank you thank you.=D
For those who were A LIL late to get one of my shirts,i'll print more soon okay?But now im up for a new design because i want something fresh!hehehe.

bdw,MANY THANKS TO:
1.fye and havana clothing
thanx for selling together and sharing the same booth just now.

2.my dear boyfriend
for helping me out at the booth and for making me happy=p but danggggg,i u farted TWICE at me today!give warning so that i can get away before u freaking release ur gas! tgk ah hang,aku kumpui gas aku byk2 dulu,kentut kat muka hang!sampai pengsan!

3.dear friend capik
tumpang kereta,anta umah.heheh.tq;p

4.qib and rest of my cuzins who came to mcpa just now
thanx teman jaga booth skali.and sonok dapat kuar mamam later that nite

5.zaxx my ex-booth neighbour=p (aliff yang mana then?)
for ur demo.yeay!i got one!!

6.my dad!
i know...i know....i was home too late..but i HAD to watch oag performed!!!but i guess midnites too late for a 18 year old girl to come home.sry to make u n mama angry and worried.didnt mean too,im serious.thanx for not scolding me when i got home just now..


THANK YOU once again.i've now get to taste success.more to come!perserverence freaking work!good thing i didnt give up last time when i didnt have customers and wasted loadsss of money.
cant do without you people.
i love all of u=' )

BANNER!

S.K.I.P ART BANNER!
Put this at ur page to show your support.hehehehehe
more designs soon okay.Curently busy trying to sell off my stuff,finishing the undone custom orders,and and and my brains pretty dry with ideas and inspiration.ehehe.
So,hope you guys await patiently.

love,
yours truly.

S.K.I.P ART!

people people!!my yummy printed items have arrived!!


ladies tees!RM25 each!
TWO LEFT!i manage to sell.very fortunate.but no worries im printing more this week hopefully.
thank you buyers!thanx for the support!

here are the matching bags!
7 bags left!
rm 12 each


dont forget about this handmade one.still up for sale= )


and this:order now!handmade rm 35


i hope to have new designs soon and more money for new printings.await for s.k.ip art's next edition!
THANK YOU so much!

UPCOMING EVENTS:ill be here!




yours truly.

Two a.m

randomness+boredom+insomnia

what songs keep you singing
what do they mean to you.
what you want
is what you do to me.

What thoughts keep you thinking
what makes us who we are.
what you think of me
is what I am to you.

sing for me
think of me
what we do
is what brings us to where we are.


As you can see,ive lost half of my mind.
results were not out yesterday as rumoured.rumours roumours.stop spreading them.Ive waited anticipatedly and with anxiety and curiosity.The eagerness to know my grades just burned out!
Friends,where are you??my hot babes.I miss you bitches.

Kushwin,i know your busy but ive also heard ur out clubbing pretty often.woooooman,you better get your licence done,take me out and i'll sleep wherever you're sleeping after.

Kong lee lian,i know your busy and taylor's your second home now but you have to take a break and hang with me,again.

Jane,i know your currently as free as i am,but where the hell are you??

Shal,i heard you're in sunway now and that is all.

raja,repeat what i say on shal.

aneesha,ive heard you came back from plkn recently but do you realize that we have not talked to each other eversince school ended?im textin you tomorrow!

chris,I have not a clue if you're dead or alive.

maureen,sweetie i miss you.

everyones scattered too far from each other.i want a reunion!!!!!

its a gig dude@mcpa

Again mcpa is the place for gigs.Yesterday had the 'its a gig dude' gig there and as usual the turn out was awesome.Its good to see people supporting our local acts,being there moshing,jumping, and headbanging to locals' very improved and rising bands.Among who performed were bunkface(fuck,i missed their show!),have a nice death,our very own kajang band hijau as the opening act,black territory,couple and few more.It was a disapointment for hujan fans though as they did not turn up at their show for some crucial reasons I supposed.Anyways,it was great.I also finally had the chance to meet up with my cousin belle whom i havent seen for months!I missed her so.Also,before the gig i had this little celebration with my boyfriend,just the two of us at kenny rogers in times square.It was to celebrate mine and his belated bday as well as our belated anniversary.As we arrived at mcpa we hanged and hanged before we got into the gig.I tried seeling my s.k.i.p art t-shirt but no one bought it.I was practically promoting to the ladies there(even in the ladies' room),gave them a short brief on what i do.Even though they didnt buy it,it was great to see them showing some interest in my shirt and were kind enough to save my myspace link in their handphones.Of course not all showed interest.There were also a few who quickily said 'no thank you'.Ah well,it was worth it and i don't mind people saying no.Thats just how it is.We get a yes and a no,so its okay.=)I also did a custom t-shirt my boyfriend asked loooooonnng time ago.I finally got it done and gave it to him at the gig.Before his show started,he changed to that shirt and so it means,he freaking wore that shirt during his show!=))It made me happy to see him wear that shirt which was actually something i did spontaneously without designing it first.Well,i had something in my head.Thank god it tured out ok but a little messy.

I was also happy that i got the chance to be on stage and take pictures of his band playing.It was my first try taking photos of performances at gigs.Out of the whole bunch of pics i took,only few which i was satisfied with.heres some:




Okay,they're not that good but you know,first try.maybe my second would improve.= )Couple was the last band to perform if im not mistaken.I went back straight away after they performed as it was already 10 pm.Plus,I pictured angry faces of my parents at home waiting for me.I was supposed to go home at 5 pm.Yeahhh.5 hours late!yikes!
heres them if uve never heard of em:


alrite.toodles yaw.

I'M FRESH!

Hey earthlings!Ive started fresh,finally!Please boys and girls,take a seat,relax your shoulders and shake off that curiosity .Ive finally made my decision after a few weeks of being seriously disturbed by my sinking business and the whole hole in my wallet thing. Allow me to represent to you:



S.K.I.P ART is my new art label.Im on my own now.I've got to tell you that i feel pretty darn good about this.Im slowly trying to develop my art into my interest as well as other's.What i've learned so far is,it has to work both ways.Agreement between myself and the public(what majority would want).What i do is basically anything that im capable to do with art which includes paintings,photography,drawings,scribbled arts on anything thats possible and what i've mentioned earlier,t-shirts which i do them handmade and printed.I also do custom t-shirts but custom shirts(only handmade) is still on the hang because i've ran out of money to buy the super duper expensive fabric dyes and pens.Meanwhile,some of my shirts and bags,yes bags*new* are at the printing shop now.I should be able to pick them up and sell by march.so stay tuned here=)

Here's one of my handmade shirts.(ladies')My first s.k.i.p art design.Its up for sale and its rm35.

ladies come on,buy one!
For orders or if you're not clear about s.k.i.p art,please do contact me via myspace which you can just click my link at my side bar.
Please,please tell your friends and everybody about s.k.i.p art.spread it please.= )
Thank you people.!
support me,our local bands and brands.Msia boleh!=p