lately

Im still very much alive right now despite not doing much and basically rotting at home losing my mind waiting for the acceptance letter to enter university.Recently i went for a mass comunication interview at uitm shah alam with pretty much confidence in myself.I brought something extra-a huge file of my portfolio which includes everything that i've done,my artwork that is,which I though was quite necessary for this interview.As i reached uitm,i discovered that it wasn't (necessary) and i was,in hundreds, the only one who brought a portfolio.Everyone came with just a small file of certificates.I didn't bother if I was 'the girl with a file bigger than her',but honestly i wished i didn't bring that along.You see,my intention was to show the interviewer(s) of what Im capable of doing you know,besides just talking sense like what i believe others who went for the interview was ready for.So its just a lil something extra-i thought.Until,my turn came rite,and i was so ready to create a convincing conversation with them.First thing I said to them,as i enter the room was about my portfolio.I told them i had something extra with me.And they were impressed with my work,seriously.Too impressed that we end up talking about my talent and they felt that its a waste fr me to take up mass communications as i deserve so much to be in an art and design course.Personally,i know i am all suite up to do art and design but i've thought about it and i want to do mass communications.So,they asked me a few questions like why i want mass comm and why uitm.I answered,trying my best to get them into interviewing me on mass com rite,like what I WAS THERE FOR.Heck,it didnt work.They kept telling me how good n incredible my talent is and i should go try out for ad interview.I didn't want to lose,i felt like crying.I told them,again,this..is..what..i..want.I don't know if i'm convincing enough.So heres what they said at last:-call up uitm and try out for ad interview tell them u din not get mass com.lyana,we like you,really,just try out for the interview,at least you'll have TWO OPTIONS later on to choose from.They're freaking twisting my head.Are you going to accept me or not.If im ok,if you really like me why don't you just accept me.You don't ask people to take up something they don't want.So I went out of the room feeling very2 miserable and regreted bringing my portfolio along.But by studying their faces,i still believe that they will,still,accept me in mass com.Ill just pray for now.But,screw you,i don't know if i should be mad at the both of you but you got me into being a bigtime moody n miserable pig.Yes,i feel like a pig.

rub it off.Im done thinking and i'll wait patiently for now.