Monday, October 29, 2007

My first art work to be displayed in public.

Well,i sure hope so.
My cousin Jeany,textd me yesterday saying shes doing an art auction at ANNEXE (WOWW!) this sat and sun.She asked me if theres any of my work that i would want to sell or display.I was SO thrilled.I mean ive always wanted THIS.This is it.The first step.And i dont know how she knows im an art person cause im really not close to her.anyways,god bless u so much sis jeany!But one problem though.I didnt know what to give her.All my work are just plain sketches and regular paintings on an art block.I dnt think that'll be good enough to be displayed let alone sell.So,I HAD to do something.BUT,im not sure if its good enough but i like it and im gnna give it a try.I don't mind if no one buys it.As long as its shown to the public,that'll already make me happy.;D

Introducing my (unfinished) work.


Okay,hahah,that is the only thing i could think of and capable of doing in the meantime.This is an abstract lomo with band names on it.Its about 20cm by 54 cm.Not too big or too small.Just nice i thought.The reason why i chose to do this is because I think that well,its more for youngsters actually and hopefully it COULD BE something that they would want to hang on their walls.yes,dream on.;p Its not fully completed.I have to paste them nicely on a cardboard and make a frame.yes,a wooden frame and paint it white or mustard(haven't decide).From tomorrow i have to search for wood.

The end result,i'll blog it another time once finish.Im excited but at the same time,not so sure if its ok to be displayed.
till next time.ta

Saturday, October 27, 2007

guilty.

If theres a judge,i would be behind bars already and i would gladly accept it.

reasons:
1.for not attending alif's open house yesterday
2.for not being able to go to my bf's friend's opn house today.


From reason 1:
no transport.
Basically everyone that can drive were all out yesterday and i was left home alone.I felt very very guilty for not being able to be there especially because he came my house to invite me.I text him later that evening to say how much im sorry.He said its alright and we could catch up some other time.Then a bit later a new msg from him came in,"you know my house is still open and i can pick u up there if u want"gah,he was late!! i was already on my way out to have dinner with the family.Damn i didn't know that hes house will be open till night.So yeah,xde rezeki.

From reason 2:
Lini,az's friend invited me to her open house later at 3 pm.Again,no transport.My dad is out riding and my brothers out for raya.My mum is home but she cant send me there.Its bangi and we have to look for her house.WIth my mum's terrible sense of direction,we wont make it.Or even if we will,she won't be able to make it home after she drops me off.sigh.I feel terrible because az has always been there with me when i asks him to come along.He has met almost all of my friends.I havent met any of his except for petch.Hah,i really have to make it up to him some day.

From both reasons:
I NEED MY LICENCE!

Thursday, October 25, 2007

people do come back. .

My mom screamed my name just this evening when i was resting peacefully in my bedroom.I was purging badly from 3 am last night.god knows what I ate.Anyways,i managed to get my fat ass up from bed right after she called.She told me my friend Alif was here,at my house.But i didn't quite hear what she said at first.Was it Alif or Ariff and here as in my house or on the phone.So I checked with her again and she said Alif's at the gate.I stopped and stared at her for a second.You gotta be kidding me i thought.I still could not believe what i heard.Maybe she heard it wrong.Maybe it was Ariff and not Alif.Alif is an old friend of mine.My ex's close friend actually,who changed school from saujana to victoria Institution in Kl last 2 years and never got the chance to keep in touch him ever since.He was very close to my ex before.Even went to Hong Kong together with my ex's family.And not to mention,was with us on our first date.Note that our first date was also the first time we've met.So,I went out to the gate and could not belive my eyes.IT WAS HIM! A L I F.I went 'oh my god' for like a minute in front of him and shaked his hands a lil too long.I missed him!we werent close(I believe its because my ex bf never liked me talking to other guys especially his friends) but Alif,he was everyones little brother.He has this cute character which everyone loves.And i can't believe how much i miss him.He was there!at my house and in front of me!He looked the same,and still has that kiddish character.And so I invited him in but he said he cant be long,his sister was in the car.He just stopped by to invite me to his open house this saturday.How thoughtful of him.I didn't think that he'll even remember me.The one question did pop though."how are u with ridt,still ok?"So,i guess he hasnt been catching up with him either.but he leaves just opposite of ridt's crib.hmm got me thinkin there.Anyways,i told him that im no longer with ridt and back to the invitation,i said i'll try to make it.Which this time,I definitely meant that.hihi.We were still amazed of how long its been.But he had to go.

So,the boyfriend called me a lil later.How thoughtful of him too=)Or maybe he wanted to ask if i was goin to art class.ahha,yea that was it.but hey we were on the phone quite long,talking crap.I actually miss him.And Im glad that everything seems to be better now.I think I understand what type of person he is.Hes not the type who would let his feelings out to me and everything but i guess,there must be some presence of love for me or at least care in him.Its a good thing that i did not give up on him.well,'kalau ada jodoh,xkan kemana"ahahah.ok,scratch that,thats lame.So,let me encapsulate and make it into one sentence:

Of all the things my masin mouth has complained about,that is every bit of him,i still very much like him,care about him,and still believe that theres hope.

There,ive said it.hmm.How did i get to this point anyways?All I wanted to say was,when i mentioned my bf,that i asked him to come with me to Alif's this saturday.N it got me into a confession.hah.=)If theres nothing more important than going to alif's,ill be there,as long as my bf could come along because i cant go there alone.

Thank u alif,love u n miss u much,old friend.
Thnx az,ur officially on the way to become my soulmate.For once i feel like i have a significant other and am glad that its you.=)

ill stop before i get all jiwang.hiihhi.n yes i refuse to talk about other stuff rite now other than my life with the bf.;)big issue.ahaha

Saturday, October 20, 2007

friday night.

of bunga apis,mercuns,a beautiful night(although there were'nt stars twinkling above or a moon shining,i was happy that it didn't rain)and most importantly all the people that turned up that night who made it all happen.Many don't know each other because there were new friends of mine,old comrades,school friends and ex-school friends which we never get to meet or hang at the same time and place.But I was happy to see all of them getting along like they knew each other.now thats!unity
;D Malay,chinese and indian.Thats how Malaysians should celebrate.All the three(or more)races together.I thank all of you for coming.Oh I want to apologise to those who went back empty handed without me giving duit raya.Im terribly sorry,I was too busy having fun to remember that little thing.but no worries i will find you people(i'll try my best for ex-school mates)and give it to you.Also i want to apologise to my friends who got stung by some termites at my garden(ground bees,according to kusu,wth??;pmy bf burst out laughing when she said this which made her threw a tissue box at him.hahhah;Dhilarious).Ive already told them to be nice to you people but i guess they were to degil to even listen to me.Just accept it like love bites or more like love stings,alrite guys?hee.;DIt was an enjoyable night and the best raya i've had in years.Thats it,you people are definitely in my list for next year's raya.:D





pictures at www.picasaweb.google.com/liyanafnd

feel free to see or grab.

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

syawal akan tiba!

Di sini,ingin saya susun sepuluh jari jemariku meminta ampun atas salah dan silap,tidak kiralah dari kata2 mahupun perbuatan aku yang telah menyinggung perasaan.Sesungguhnya aku memang tidak sengaja.Oh,scratch that,yang sengaja pon,maafkanlah: ).Sebenarnya tidak berniat aku hendak lukakan hati kamu2 ini.Kamu semua sebagian besar dari hidupku.
1.mama dan papa
2.Fairuz dan Hafiz
3.cikjah,late aunty jai,aunty yah,aunty remah
4.Fye
5.miza,aiza dan nizar
6.bella dan thaqib
7.syafiq
8.azzari
9.petchai
10.shahrin
11.kawan2 non-muslim ku
12.rakan2
13.muslimin dan muslimat sekalian

1.
Mama dan papa.Jikalau hendak ku tuliskan segala dosa yang telah ku buat,sampai kucing bertanduk barulah boleh habis.ku tahu,aku anak yang derhaka.Tidak mahu mendengar kata tetapi tidak ada orang lain di dunia ini yang ku lebih menyayangi.Pendek kata,ku xboleh hidup dan tidak boleh ku bayangkan hidup tanpa kamu berdua..terima kasih atas segala kebahagiaan dan masa2 duka kita bersama.Kebahagiaan sentiasa datang bersama dugaan.Itulah hidup bagiku.
2.
Abang-abang aku,siapalah aku tanpa kamu berdua.Aku tak boleh bayangkan betapa bosannya hidup aku tanpa korang.Tak ada orang untuk cuit hati aku,buat aku ketawa terguling-guling,dan menyakitkan hati aku.aku ingat betapa gembiranya hatiku apabila korg kena marah dengan mama dan papa kerana menyakat aku.Padan muka!hahah.Seronok sungguh jadi the only anak perempuan.Bongsu pula tu.u guys pon terpaksa berkorban beberapa perkara demi aku.I cant thank you guys enough.You guys are the ones who coloured my life ever since i came into this world.hugs!
3.
my aunts.Speacially to cikjah and late aunty jai(although ur not here,u'll always be in memory and heart,i miss u so much.)You two have been like ibu ku sndiri.Jaga ku semasa kecil,melayan segala kerenah ku,masak untuk ku,membawa ku berjalan2 di kebun atuk dengan basikal buruknya,mandi perigi,dan mengibas-ngibas badanku dengan daun ape entah semasa ku dmm campak.Ku tidak boleh lupa masa2 dahulu.A typical kampung life and tidak boleh diulang lagi walaupun ku mahu ia berulang very badly.Semuanya telah berubah.Tidak sama lagi.Aunty jai pon telah meninggalkan kami.Apakan daya.
Aunty yah and aunty rhemah,i love u as much although we don't spent as much time together as i did with cikjah and aunty jai.Forgive everythin thats wrong.
4.
Fye,my closest cousin and friend.Kami berdua membesar bersama.wah terlalu banyak kenangan bersama lagi2 masa kecil sewaktu kita sangat sangatlah nakal omygod.Makan pon atas meja.mandi pon sama.Tdo,bermain,ke skolah,balik dari skolah semuanya sama2.hahah.ur like my twin and i louph u so much lah.hidup aku boring tanpa kamu couzie.maaf na,dosa2 yana terhadap fye.; )
p/s:rindu main 'kuda2 bantal'.hahah hanya kita berdua yang tahu.Walaupun kena marah dgn cikjah and aunty jai,kita tetap main secara sembunyi kan.degil sungguh.
5.
adik beradik fye.membuatkan family kami yang besar ni lagi kecoh.tu yang bes tuh.we rock together!trip ke mana2 saja kita pergi bersama.next trip ke morocco pada desember nnti.sangatlah tak sabar!
6.
belle n qib.minta maaf segala salah silap i.kamu org bes.sayang korang.
7.
okay im drained by now.hahah.ill make it quick.capik,ko kawan lelaki aku yang palaing first aku rapat.hang ni baik orgnya.dengar je segala masalah aku.aku pon dgr gak hang punya kan.selama ni xnah la kita gaduh and harap2 xdela gaduh2 ni.i pon happy la tgk u jumpe kekasih hang tu.semenjak tu xdalah cita lain besides ur kekasih.hahah,aku dengar ja.bes ke xbes ke,cite kawan aku akan tetap nak dengar.maaflah na kalau ada tersinggung masa kita busy luahkan cerita dan perasaan masing2.Thanks jugaklah for the masa nak borak2 tu.xde kau,susah jugak aku.
8.
Azzari.boyfriend aku.da 3 bulan kot kita bersama.satu hapak pon aku xpaham sama ko ni.pelik sungguh orangnya.Aku marah2 pon benci2 dalam hati pon,aku rasa aku sayang hang gak lah.tak tau mengapa tapi ada jugaklah rasa sayang tu.tah dari mana datang pon taktau.tapi aku ttp la marah kat hang.sebab tak balas balik kasih aku.ko xreti ke,atau xnak ke,aku pon xtau.aku cakap 'i love u' ko bukan nak balas pon.dulu hegeh2 nak aku,rajin msg skang hmph!rasa cam bodoh jugala aku ni.tapi aku xgiv up lagi la kat hang nih.nak tau gak cite hang.Kami boleh hidup dengan gembira tanpa contactin each other for more than a week.natural ke?xkan?haha.tapi itulah hakikatnya.Penat aku tgu kau msg aku tanya khabar.last2 aku jugak yang msg hang.hampeh betui hang nih.pe2 pon maafkan jelah ok.
9.
petchai.ko kawan paling baik kot aku jumpe.walaupun baru je kenal ko aku dapat tgk la,ko ni mmg treassure gila kawan.n im glad im one of ur friends.kite kenal kat art class masa nak habiskan projek seni yang bertimbun.last minute work,biasalakan petch.balik pon midnight nak menghabiskan tu.itu pon berhari2.lama jugaklah kita lepak.pegi hameed semua cari makan.hm,maaflah pe2 silap aku kat ko.rasa xde.heheh tapi manalah tau kan.
10.
Shahrin ismail.the drummer.aku pong baru jugak kenal hang ni.tapi fuh banyak gila aku tau sal hang.cam da 10 taun kenal lah.kalau kita borak tu,cam machine gun,mana taknya.besla kawan ngan hang.aku cita pon u dgr je kan.baik betul.penah hang skali ja ngan u.maafla xdpt buke puasa ngan hang hari tu.nnti2 lepeh spm kita lepak la sampai lebam na.yang lain pon maaf2kanlah.trima kasih banyak2 teman aku masa bosan2.ada juga org yang aku ley borak bersama cakap benda2 bodoh.sayang kau.
11.
kong,jane,shaloo,kusu,aneesha,chris,raja.u noe i love u ladies.maaf juga salah silap ku.muahhs

ok dah lah.selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin.

Saturday, October 6, 2007

iTunes packed

More songs uploaded.From pink floyd to velvet revolver to oag to the darkness to blink 182 to keane to led zeppelin to queen to smashin pumpkins to lillix and to 3 doors down and to before their eyes.Hah,yes,a whole load of em!And yea,refered to my itunes for this whole list of em.Goin to upload more soon from michael learns to rock.The band that ive been listening to all the time when i was younger.I just remembered of them recently.'Ive got time!' hahah.I really should be studyin ey?

Anyways.Besides mltr,Bon jovi has the greatest ballads ever.buatkan saya jiwang all the time.Back to bon jovi!yes,they really have the very best ballads.Although most of em sounds pretty much the same,I still feel every song has its own uniqueness.And man,jon bon jovi still looks good altho age is really catchin up on him.



Oh,im gonna download songs from our very own lagend,P.Ramli.yeahh.Since lee lian has always been mentionin him and erg singin his songs like an old radio that cant be shut.grins*yeah,lee lian is an amoi.haha malu aku;p.So,soon Ill start singing along with her.And the kareoke after our spm.oh spm.hum,whats that?

hahah.bdw,life is treatin me bad!nough said.

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

New product.Go get it tiger!grrr;p

"herba produk.mencegah cancer prostat.Meningkatkan daya seksual.suami hebat isteri gembira;rumah tangga bahagia.Soyoung2u.com.call 03-42946436.CIK GEE"

BAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!i got this sms earlier on.what the ferck man.suami hebat isteri gembira??meningkatkan daya sexual?HAHAHAHAH! Is it really necessary to say all this?Man you gotta be kidding me.Im just wondering,is this more for the prevention of prostate cancer or more for the sexual arousement thing? think its more for the sexual arousement thing.It should be written like this then:

"herba produk yang pasti boleh meningkatkan daya seksual anda para lelaki.Suami hebat isteri pasti gembira.Secara tidak langsung,rumah tangga juga akan bahagia.Tambahan pula,herba produk ini boleh mencegah kanser prostat."

hah hahah.That should be it.
And i thought men have OVER 'daya seksual' already.They dont need this,what they need is practice.Muahahahah!

This really made my day.!Thank you,you stranger.
Man have i been gettin weird sms lately.

Are men facing extinction?

Hairan.Mana pi semua laki yang macho2?

I feel like there are more gays around compared to LELAKI TULEN.Is doomsday coming really soon?wallahuallam.Wonder what its like in 10 years time.When 70% of men turn into gays.Have you ever thought of that?I certainly have,by looking roughly on people these days.Its conspicuous.Its undeniable and so unbelievable of how big the number is.You'll definitely bump into a gay guy everywhere you go.Malls,mamak stalls,gyms u name it.They are everywhere!This is bothering me.I go to malls to get some eye candy aka cuci mata.And its so dissapointing to come home without a hot guy in mind to day dream of!haih,begitu kecewa.isk isk isk.

Manalah lelaki Melayu yang hot hot belaka.Yang bersuara megah which can melt a girls heart.Yang berbadan 'tough' (tetapi bukanlah macam arnold susahnaeja) dan bukan 'kempeng'.Yang bermata tidak terlalu besar dan tidaklah terlalu kecil(hahah).Gone,they're all gone.What is left are all the 'jambus' and the 'aws'.Lelaki yang tulen pon tidaklah setulen tulennya.Semuanya GEDIK.They think adorable is cute?Ahh,it maybe cute but pfft come on,I don't wanna marry an 'adorable' guy.I want 'macho'!macho man!For gods sake,TOUGHEN UP please guys.Too adorable can be annoying.Sure,!!you'll get all the attention u want badly from girls 'girls keliling pinggang',but them girls are not gonna fall for you.Don't you get it?They are going to be your 'bff',your bestfriends until one day you'll wake up on your little bed when you're 30 and realize that you don't have a real girlfriend and are still living with your parents.Hah,yes.Berfikirlah wahai lelaki2 sekalian.Jangan sampai tak kawin dan janganlah menyusahkan ibu bapa sahaja.And this is one of the factors of why men turn into gays.Plus,i didn't know that some guys can be so concious of what they do,wear or even talk.isk isk sungguh tak macho.Yes,get my defination of macho?good.

Second factor.Are you ready?This came from one of my guy friends from Indonesia.Bdw,hes not gay,its just his opinion.ahahahh;p.According to him,girls give guys too much pressure with their high demand on certain things.With that,they couldnt take it and they get too stressful,give up and turn into gays.Seriously,girls CaN be bitchy and so I cant disagree.But,why are you guys such sissies?Again,TOUGHEN UP please.Take everything like a man.Be a fuckin MAN.!

Its sad,really really sad.To all the 'pure' men out there,i suggest you people to be a little preachy and save your species!

Monday, October 1, 2007

a day with instruments


sara dan aku

i suck and thus i dnt deserve to be in the picture; )