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Whats been up besides my business?

Heres the cliche line.Lifes pretty much the same.Im 18 and Im like most other 18 year olds,who decided to wait for the results and not to go to college.I don't know if I have a solid reason to not go to college but I have again,like most 18 year olds,few selfish reasons to not go to college: I was afraid I won't get the time to 'enjoy' and do whatever I want if I were in college right after spm.Secondly,I am not ready to get my brains to work and to learn new serious subjects which also means i am too lazy and in need of a break from studying.Thirdly,well theres no third reason.I guess if I were already in college i won't get the chance to do alot of things:

I won't get the chance to develop my art and get myself involve in business.I do see this as a learning process actually.I think i've learn how to appreciate money more compared to before.Although i've always knew that to earn money is not easy,but it was just not more than knowing that fact.Now,i've actually experienced it myself,going through all the hard work trying to get a single penny of my own.It is not easy peasy but the satisfaction you'll get after is such a pleasure.I just can't imagine how my dad works.I mean I feel like my life is too comfortable,getting everything i want,I don't see a single problem.He gives me everything.I just feel guilty-for not getting good grades and using loads of his money.Well,results will be out this wednesday and I'm so afraid to disapoint my parents.But what's done is done,I'll do good next time I guess.No use crying over spilt milk right.

Moreover,if I were already in college,I'll probably won't get the chance to spent time as much as i've spent with my boyfriend and getting to know him more.I'll most probably forget about him and hook up with another guy from college or staying single and being flirty like I was after school ended.Well,you know,the 'girls just wanna have fun' thingy.I'll probably won't get the chance to even know what a great friend he is,won't get the chance to meet his lovely friends and lets just say,i don't think he'll even be in my life chapter.

Besides that,getting into college that early would make me miss loads of gigs.I do enjoy going to gigs,supporting local bands as well as meeting new people.My social life definitely has improved so much more by getting involved in these things.I mean,i now mix with people easily compared to before,I only hang with my close friends.I've also learned to be more friendly to people.hihi.Not to say that I was not friendly before but I just did not bother much of other people.;)

I might not also get the chance to have my vacation in Perth,Australia this may with my momma if I were in college.Yes,I'll miss teh chance to have fun during winter there!Plus this time around i'll only be going with mama alone,just the two of us,leaving the rest of the family behind.My dad was moody for a week or so when we decided to go there.He ended up buying himself a new car.Ah well,whatever makes you happy,papa=)Ill also miss the happy moments i spent with mama.Going for breakfast,lunch or just hanging out getting a drink and talking crap.Im not ready to leave her alone.Im too close to her.huhu yeah,anak mama.

Oh!college would also cost my dad alot.I mean,it didn't matter if I were as smart and as hard working as KOng Lee Lian or Kushin kaur or Shamine Sanusi-my babes=p.If I were them,I guess i won't be wasting my dad's money,it'll be worth it.So,yeah,few selfish reasons that i could think of for not going to college so soon.And i guess i've spent my break very well.I didn't waste my time and doing nothing.Though i must admit that going to British Council didn't really helped me much.I still have problem speaking,getting my words right and my writting didn't improve too.It helped me a little but you know,not much.Ill finish by end of march if I'm not mistaken.Can't wait though.lol.I don't really enjoy going there,for some reasons.

godddd,my heart just races everytime i think of the results this wednesday.I am going to faint.
wish me luck.Though,could i possibly get lucky still?miracle perhaps?That will so do!
cheers everyone= )