out

Went out today with sara and neb to get our tshirts kosong utk rantai nnti.spinning jenny dapat booth on 15 and 16 dec.alhamdulillah ada rezeki;p.ada rezeki but at the same time buat aku pokai.harini je dah guna 70 bucks.and i still owe 35 bucks.gah dammit.byk betui gna duit bende nih.lagi2 spinning jenny just 3 orang.Booth ja da 60 bucks.so split pon,sorang 20 bucks.haih,mahal2.anyway,did i tell you today was fun?well it was.havent hang out for pretty long.so berbaloi juga lah tgu bas berjam nk sampai.nak balik pong terpaksa diri lama dengan jamnya lagi dgn org tolak menolak.Oh,speaking of org tolak menolak,most people really dnt have the courtesy to even say 'excuse me'.i mean how hard is that?pft bodoh punya olang!Anyways,we manage to reach annexe and got our t shirs kosong.unfortunately we got only whites.We wanted sort of vintage colours but the shop attendant tu kata wont be able to get easily.plus because we need em quick.so white it is.Now i have to do 7 designs and i havent start with any.gah.ill be 'bz'.hahah.i really need ilham man.mintak2 jadilah my designs.amin.

Minggu lepeh lagi da ajak2 shahrin mai lepak annexe today.he said he wont be coming back.tiba2 smlm rabu msg kata xde class and da balik.so i ajak him lepak and he said segan because my friends will be there.haishh hang nih mmg nak kena.paksa jugak dia datang tadi so he did come.heheh.setelah lama xbertemu ngan dia dapat la jgk jmpe tadi.lepas rindu kat hang.and bumped into jay.amik gmbar semua.biasala..dengan org fames.xlepeh peluang kan.haha.heres the pics.








oh the third picture is pakcik jual t yg baik hati.heheh.the last pic,i look like an old woman.pfft.nice pic anyway coz its very clear,sarah tangkap.; )shahrin bersabarlah.sara mmg suka buli orang.tapi baguih la.hang slalu buli aku.padan muka.haha.
hah well its a very tiring day sbb tgu bas lama tu and jalan jauh.plus i didnt eat today.only ate 3 kaya balls for breakfast.hahah,but then again,it was fun.cheers

alone

damn..kindda lonely tonight.=(
i should get use to this.


so i shoot myself to kill time.still felt lonely after that.and not to mention took so many shots and im only satisfied with this.thats why i hate shooting self portraits.im just not for it.

aku kesunyian.i admit.how do u sigletons do it.

AKTA ANGKASA

I FREAKING FELL IN LOVE WITH THEM.SUCH AWESOME BAND EXIST!
I SWEAR TO GOD I LOVE THEM TO THE CORE.
i LOVE them.


I wont stop saying this.again,i LOVE them.
They're just simple AWESOME.

local bands that i DEFINITELY support:
-mercy mercy
-akta angkasa
-jeorpardice
-teenage glory for the wasted
-telephony delivery.

U GUYS are AWESOME.

great day

we got the keys to our new condo in kl.Sri Maya.nice condo.We're gna stay there maybe for a month or so next year and gna rent it out after that.Well,17 taun duk kajang nk merasa jugak duk kl kn.hehheh.senang sket nak kuar rayau2.train station is just across the road.



omg,is that a 50 year old guy on that thing??
ahhh...Nope.he's 53.and hes my dad alrite.!hahha.mmg macam budak kecik!;p.i looovee uuu!

naik gila aku naik bnde ni ngan dia.lol

mama pon tak tau mana nk hide malu.hahah;p.

I cant wait for our unit to be furnished.looks like we have to shop for some furnitures soon.So,later we went bukit bintang.law yatt to get.ehem this baby:

hahah yes,finaly.And then we went back n out again for dinner at novatel.My bro hafiz came from damansara.Dinner with the family.5 of us.love that.food was good.
bottom line,today was a family day out and it was great.;)

fuck all perverts!

IDIOTS!such losers.

spinning liyana

My heads spinning.Im more confused than ever.So confused that i don't even want to think about it.Why do things get so complicated at times.Im liyana.the happy jumpy kid.the happiest girl in the universe.Well,so it seemed.Ignorance is bliss but i dnt know how to ignore things.And its bothering me and i dont like it.im having mixed emotions here.I WANT TO BE OUT OF THE COUNTRY!away from people for a while.bdw do you know what love is?oh yes i do.ive been in love once.whats the feeling like?it was awesome.i couldnt sleep and when i do all i dream is that one person.and makan x kenyang mandi xbasah.It makes me happy that i can even shed a tear.it makes me float and i felt like i have wings to fly.it was so beautiful that even the cheesy love lines doesnt seem pathetic but seemed so true.That was with my first boyfriend and the love didnt last in me bacause he was over protective which shoved me away.too loving that he was obsessed with me.too obsessed that he was always emotional even on little things that got in our way.He was often sick and he needed me 24/7.I really mean 24/7.i felt like his mother more than his girlfriend.he needed my comfort too much that i couldnt give it anymore.I felt like a boyfriend,giving all those care and comfort while i dnt get much.What i got is not being able to talk to other people.He was too afraid that they would fall for me.too afraid too lose me.That is an obsession.I am obsessed with kurt don cobain.people get obsessed with their idols but not their partners.It felt like my world was in his hands.He was too crazy over me that i even thought he needed theraphy.Because he couldnt do it,couldnt live even when im busy for a while.i loved him but thats not how it should be.thinking of him makes me crazy.i couldnt bear that kind of life.n so i broke up.It was other way round with azzari.Totally opposite.the 24/7 text messeges with my first boyfriend came down to 2-3 messeges a week with my new boyfriend.It felt different especially after two and a half years with the first one.after 2 n a half years being so used to every-minute messeges.It was a big change for me.totally a big change.everything else was different too.Although i can count how many times i went out with my first boyfriend(meaning we didnt go out much),i still was so very deep in love with him.I dnt see why it couldnt work with az.but it really couldnt and didnt.Maybe were're not meant for each other?As much as it hurts,i accept it.i gave up and accept it.reconcile?ive thought about it.but i dnt think im going for it.i dnt want to be asked for outings and cant make it.i dnt want to be unavailable to him as a gf.i dont want to dissapoint him.Thats whats hard for me.And so i guess my decision is final.yes.only now.I think its best this way.


CRAP!another personal entry.

die! die!

addmaths was a BITCH!

gah.sian kn?xpasai ja kene pgl bitch.sapa suruh xblajak awai2 kan?.sian addmaths,sian aku.since ini kali terakhir aku negok kau dan jawab soalan2 kau,aku ucapkan slamat tinggal,addmaths.Aku harap aku xbertemu dgn kau lagi pada masa hadapan.bertemu dengan saudara kau moden maths tak apa.tapi dgn kau,tolongla tglkan aku.Maaflah sebab terlalu banyak aku mencarut kat kau dan pgl kau assmaths.mana tak fail kan?haih.selamat tgl.

introducing:

coming soon.
muahahah!*evol laugh*

hiihhi;p hah,life is treating me god damn good!and also,great plans ahead.Well,enough with boyfriends and all that."i dnt need a man"lol.its just that im doing a major on myself now.soon i mean.new time,this time 'SELF DISCOVERY'time.yes,it has come.time for me to 'berkembang' since Im gnna be 18 in 3 n a half months time.i have to make a great history here.not for anyone else's sake but for my own.and anyone care enough to throw me a party next year?hihi.bdw,ive been telling too many personal things here.ill take a break frm that.well,since there is nothing personal to talk about.heh;D

oh about the 'spinning jenny' thingy,well....coming soon=)

keeping fingers crossed

I hope ill get to display (and sell,if anyone wud wanna buy) my art stuff at RANtAi's art event on the 16th of dec.Still waiting for the confirmation from this new friend i made(hahah,on myspace;p) who was really kind enough to offer me a space to display my artwork.By that he means joining him and his band (matematik) if they get a table.If they dont,he still will help me find a table from his friends.Well,i jus need a LIL space anyway: )

His band,matematik will be performing there on the 16th alongside couple and..and many other bands.heheh.
well since his helpful i should probably promote his band.listen to their songs at:

amp.channelv.com/matematikmusik

and their band page:

www.myspace.com/matematikmusik

hiihi.cheers

no more lyana-azzari

Well,it was mutual.BOth of us felt strange as a couple.i told in my previous entries that i was not ready to give up on him but just about a week ago,i did.i actually did gave up.And luckily he felt the same,and we talked just about a few minutes ago.so we are singletons from today onwards.My feelings?idk.I think its better this way.Because theres absolutely no north-south magnet between us.And i absolutely dnt mind being single.infact i havent been single for almost 3 years!ive been with my ex for 2 and a half years,broke up and got together with az 5 days later till today.well,3 months of nuthing with him.i mean as a couple.but friends,yea it was something.Didnt regret anything though.I am going to be single for as long as i can.Although theres someone whos been waiting for me,i dnt want to be in a realtionship right now.Unless its the guy that ive liked since i was 12.6 years.wayyy before my ex even.man,hes the only guy ive really liked.too long i have to say.never got the chance to even talk to him though.But i hope someday i will.and someday,he'll know.perhaps;/

The Brothers

one of the most disgusting man alive;my brother.yet,its wat makes him unique and explains why people love him.hes entertaining.i mean,VERY.Will be dead without him.he also has this idk,this thing with old people.Soft hearted i have to say.Aunties and grandma LOVES him.No,im really serious.yes,i dnt say this often and ill only say it once.enough praising.i love u brother.

HAPPY 22nd(i think,haha)BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCED.



HAPPY BELATED 26th BIRTHDAY ABG HAFIZ.
ur bossy,but i love you too:)

one last time

Lord,God,Allah,

im praying for u,begging you, for one little thing for now.Please,please and please,keep my mind steady,relaxed as it can be,all the notes and everything ive learned thsts in my head to be 'queing' patiently and 'comes out' only when i need em,get back in line when i dont need em,dnt let em run around like crazy pigs in my head.it'll make things harder,giving me a headache,and'll leave me blank.You see,no one wants that.i certainly dnt want that.Ya Allah,let the ideas flow in and out smoothly.ones out make sure theres enough time for me to jod em down and not just flow in the air and blown far away by the wind.Once back in make sure they're back 'in line','queing' for their turn if ever i need em once again for another point.Ya tuhan,please let my hands be calm and not shaking.Let me write with the best writting.As clear as i could so that it will set a pleasant mood for the examinor to read.Most gracious,please let my eyes be wide open,see things clearly.Let me read every word there is in the question papers with my brains working well at the same time.Bring me memories and ideas.make them come to life while i answer every single question.Let me question myself and answering the questions right away.Let it be right.Let it be right,i beg u.Most merciful,let my heart beat as steady as it could.Bring me far away from getting a nervous break down.Im ready to use the brains u gave me.Dnt let me panic.Im worried because im certainly not worried at all right now as if im sitting for a normal test.So please,i dnt want to panic once in the hall.please!

amin.

spm

its this monday.12th nov 07.ready or not,time wont wait.it has come and i have to sit for it.ill be writting down everything and anything i know for the last time of my high school history.everything and every single thing that i can remember from what ive learnt all these years.Panic,is the one thing that im worried of.What makes me panic?The thought of getting the results next year,yes,and also for not being fully prepared.Why am i not fully prepared?The thought of the joy ill be getting after finishin/semi-finish the papers.Why am i so stupid?I have no idea.I dnt dare to say i dread this spm because therell only be one spm and one chance in my life.yeah,again,THIS is it.It feels like im in my subconcious state untill now.2 days before spm.What is hapenin with me?i absofuckinlutely have no idea.People,i myself wish myself the best of luck all the time.Its not possible to not think about spm at his moment.Just yesterday i was still having fun and fooling around,had a wonderful night with the family.U must be wondering,am i kidding myself.Someone even labelled me as 'hero' for still being online and not studying.Well,i thank you.But,its not that i dont study at all.i do,to be honest.Maybe just not much or enough to score a string of straight A's.I have my target but maybe just not very ambitious,well at this moment.where im actually supposed to be all out and going for it.throw all that force and effort.score straight A's.okay maybe 10 As and fail for chemistry.coz thats the only subject i cant do at all.absolutely no chemistry with chemistry.But if i studied well enough i know i could get 10As.For now,2 As down.And its all still hope.HOPE.8 As is not easy but no harm trying all my best.Gah,i dnt know what i'll get!!ahh,crap.But i promise myself not to regret anything.anything at all.so,wish me all the best or just shup up.Im not being mean,but if you're gnna say something,i know whats its gnna be so id rather not hear em over and over again.i know.have u heard of the saying 'its easier said than done'?Thats what im facing and im sure everyone faces that but my weakness is failing to break that.I shall not go on with this now.wish me luck.: )

hanged

a bit of poster colour n the rest water colour.
= )

Annexe rocks my socks!

im in love with annexe.Thats the best place on earth!i love the people and mostly the art there.Its awesome man.awesome!
So,i dropped by the other day just to check out the gallery.its nice ya know.lots of people.very cool.



Phew!one day,next year im gonna open my own gallery there!hahah for the sake of nuthin-to-do-after-spm.; )
Anyways!no one bought my prints:

BUT
BUT
BUT!!
This baby:

WAS SOLD FOR RM 30!
and according to jeany they were even fighting for it.whow!didnt expect that.So,sgtlah berbaloi what i did.
and..im doing this now.i mean selling my art.This abstract lomo can be ordered with band names of your choice.and of course the abstract will be different.I already have one client now.winks*and still selling for rm30.Rm 40 if its on canvas and using aqrilic.
my other art stuff for sale:

rm 30

rm 35

rm35

Ohkay.thats all for now.bdw,my prints are still available.rm 25 each.wish me luck people.!; )

ferck

My internet xberfungsi.dammit.im using my cousins now.lots of update about the annexe thingy but i cant type it out now.so,stay with me.Just to tell yea first that i made a few changes on the art work from my previous entry and also displayed 4 of my photography work there.Ill update when i get my internet back.so,do come back=)
ta!